My Story

Welcome to my program where I am going to show you how I changed my body by shifting my mindset, understanding my habits, and priming my environment.

A few big factors contributing to my eating disorder history is that I was considered a “Turn Key Kid” meaning I was given a set of house keys under the age of 10 and was pretty much on my own throughout the day. I was raised by an amazing single mother who worked too many hours to support us but with her being gone so much I was left to my own devices and didn’t grow up eating fresh delicious foods. I instead ate lots of processed foods which I could prepare myself. This gave me an unbalanced nutritional foundation. Like many children I found my childhood incredibly stressful and used these foods to self soothe. These were unfortunate habits but what created a storm of disordered eating was the dialogue I heard around me daily. My family talked about their weight and eating daily. Some of the beliefs I adapted were:

• Some people are so lucky to eat whatever they want and be skinny! Our family doesn’t have those genes.

• I am going to get back on track with my diet.

• I can’t keep anything sweet in the house, once I eat one I can’t stop.

• After the holidays I am going to get it together.

After 20 years of binge eating sugar, trying every diet that has ever existed, and feeling hate for myself to no end, I found intuitive eating. I loved everything about it but the only thing I didn’t agree with was that trying to change your body contributes to the problem. This belief means you are forced to “accept” your body in whatever state it is in…forever. This did not sit well with me. 

Let me be clear: I think you should adore, appreciate, and absolutely cherish every piece of yourself from head to toe. So many of us are blessed to have all four limbs and to be able to move them. That in itself is something that millions of people around the world would do anything to have. While I am so grateful for this I do not personally believe that striving to live in a body that I am comfortable with is a negative concept.

My process to personal success began first with curing my binge eating disorder which that in itself was such a huge relief. I spent perhaps 80% of my waking hours since I was a little girl thinking about food, my body, and fighting the urge to binge on sugar. Once I was able to crack the code on my problem I found the power of manifesting the things that I wanted out of life by changing my mindset and my habits.

There was only one problem: Trying to manifest my perfect body was just not working. I had so much history in the foundation of my self image that telling myself, “I am lean, toned, and naturally fit no matter what I eat” felt like a lie to my subconscious. I grew up believing that in order to look the way I wanted to that I was required to count calories and workout 6 days per week. Its just science right? Breaking through this barrier took a little more than manifesting for me and I realized why it wasn’t working. While I was living with a different mindset walking around saying my mantras I really wasn’t applying myself to make me feel that this was true. It was only when I remembered to live like I would when I had the body I wanted that I saw tangible results.

I needed to “be” who I wanted to be before I could “do” what I needed to do to “have” my desires.

This idea came from Jim Fortin’s “Change your life from the inside out” podcast. We expect that we will behave differently once we have the things we desire. In fact it is the opposite. You must be who you want to be to obtain and maintain your desires.

In this program I will be outlining the exact steps I took to achieve the body of my dreams while eating anything that I wanted. We are all different and just like medications, there are different responses to the same treatments. I will show how I set up the life of my dreams by just reorganizing my thoughts and behaviors.